cadillacs and long roads

this morning i saw a shiny baby pink cadillac driven by a very large man. it made me smile.

yesterday i got to hang out at scad for a few hours. i met like a gazillion scad kids. it was great. i love how scad kids dress either really cool or just completely off....like way off....and either way theyre totally ok with it.

um, yeah, bit of advice for guys:: when you do get married, dont call a girl you dated or a girl that you "sort of" dated and talk for an hour straight about how you proposed and how perfect your future wife is for you. while the girl you are talking to might be genuinely happy for you, all she is hearing is "this is why i didnt choose you" . just so you know . . .

this morning i was reading some a.w. towzer and i came across this scripture:

then shall we know, if we follow on to know the Lord: his going forth is prepared

as the morning; and he shall come unto us as the rain, as the latter and former rain

unto the earth. -- hosea 6:3

i love the rain. the thought of God pouring himself over us like rain is . . . i cant even pick the right word . . . comforting . . . amazing . . . refreshing . . . beautiful . . . i dont know. also, the promise that he goes before us and, like the morning, everything is already planned out ahead of us. even if the path seems unclear or rough, God knows where he's taking us and all we have to do is trust and follow. the following part is where i find it tricky. i think --overanalyze-- way too much, so sometimes i second guess myself when trying to take a step. i find myself always praying for God to put roadblocks in front of me if im going the wrong way due to my own self-centered desires.

desires-- those trip me up a lot. i want my desires to be Gods, and most of the time i think that they are, but it's not always easy to define. i get confused when i question, "ok, God, is this my desire b/c you want it to be . . . b/c you placed it in my heart or is it my desire b/c it's what i want?" like i said, i analyze a lot . . .

tis not enough to save our souls,

to shun the eternal fires;

the thought of God will rouse the heart

to more sublime desires.

how little of that road, my soul!

how little hast thou gone!

take heart, and let the thought of God

allure thee further on.

--frederick w. faber