creative?

this past friday night my friend, beth, and i set out for a girls' night out. we got dressed up (hooker heels included . . . ok, just kidding) and drove downtown to meet our 9:15 dessert date with Gottlieb's, a very expensive restaurant that neither of us had ever been to. the occassion? celebrating the fact that we don't know what the hell we're doing with our lives. it was great. we ate ridiculously delicious stuff at obnoxious prices that i would never tell my friends in mexico about. you should have come. in fact, we've decided to celebrate this once a month. we're not sure if we're always going for dessert, but you're welcome to come along with us.
anyhow, while we were eating, somehow our conversation got into talking about creativity and where that really comes from. thinking about it, we all create, conciously or subconciously, b/c we're created in God's image, therefore, we're wired to be like him, and he is the ultimate creator. now, we know things have gone amuck since eden, but i think that original spark to create is innate and placed there by our creator. with that said, i had a puzzling conclusion: man has never had an original thought. never. ever. if it is good, then it comes from God. if it is evil, then it is sparked by satan or one of his cronies.
as an artistic person, im kinda frustrated with the idea that, well, i've never had an original idea of my own. it's all God-inspired, and for me, it's all done to mimic him anyhow (which means it's crap, but i still think God would hang it on his fridge or on his wall at work b/c he loves me despite the fact that i struggle to draw even stick figures). whenever i make something artsy, it's always about the process for me. i dont always care about the outcome. if it's aestheticly pleasing, then im super excited (b/c that's rare), but the process is really where it's at.
i wonder . . . is that how God views us? i mean, there is whole "clay in the potter's hand" thing. but i wonder if, for God, it's all about the process. we're all living canvases. the difference between God and i though is that i think he cares about the end product immensely.
hmm....now im just rambling....

oh, funny thing happened at work today. i was standing outside of the church where i work with two girls, and we were discussing hanging out. these young ladies had just come from a bible study with one of our college/singles pastors. well, the pastor was coming out of the door just as one of the girls is saying, "i dont know, i mean, we could do whatever. we could go out for drinks maybe, or something. . ." it was perfect timing (or maybe for her, unfortunate) . . . to add to the situation, working on staff at church, i cant drink, so it even made me look shady. . .grrreeaaaat.

new beginnings

so i've switched blogs. im unoriginal and fine with it. i'll post something later. one love.